Time flies. September is just around the corner and I must admit, I am a little worried… and nervous… and excited… and happy…then nervous again..and whoa! is it normal to feel this way? whew! what a roller coaster emotion.
As much as I read about pregnancy, labor and caring for my newborn plus all the advices from friends who have experienced the same (and of course plus the words of wisdom from both sides of our family), I still feel that my knowledge is inadequate. I want to know more, if only I could practice right? Practice? How can I think and say that?Oh Mama Mia.. But as they say, you’ll know what to do when you cross that bridge – what to do during labor/delivery and how to take care of your newborn. Well, what else can I do but to follow and trust my instinct, my motherly instinct and try to incorporate all that I have learned from all my resources.
What worries me a lot is being alone during the labor. I have heard that in the hospital where I am going to deliver, no one is allowed in the labor room as in NO ONE! (this is a rule in most hospitals here in Kuwait). I really want my husband to be there, I want him to hold my hand or stroke my back while I am in labor pains. Most probably, they will give me epidural but still I want my husband there. For me, my husband’s presence will give me comfort. Well, what can we do? Nothing, right? No, there is.I have to prepare myself.I must prepare myself to be mentally strong and physically healthy to deliver my precious baby.
Furthermore, I must remind myself that I won’t be alone. God will be there for me.I’m sure He will be there to hold my hand. I just have to believe and trust in Him. Psalm 56:3 says “When I am afraid, I will trust in you”. Why worry?